Embracing Rejection

This is super relatable. Great post! 😭

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Powerless

8 days to go before the election day and the leading candidates remain consistent as though they will win the elections.

I hate this feeling of powerlessness –  you can’t do anything to change the situation. It’s already happening and I, as an average person in this country cannot do anything.

I try to influence others but the scope of this election is nation wide. The only thing I can do for now is to share in my social networking accounts hoping it will reach my friends’ feeds.

Seeing how hopeless things are, I just wish that whoever wins will serve this country with sincerity and integrity. I hope I was the one wrong, that maybe they can really make change happen.

Palaro

Unang pagkakataong maranasan,
Palarong naiiba sa kinagisnan,
Malayo sa tahanan,
Galingan sa laban.

Sugat mula sa laro’y andito,
Napagod, nasaktan at nabato,
Walang pagsisisi,
Palarong minimithi.

Limitless

Time may be limitless, but our time together is limited.

Taken in Teacher’s Camp, Baguio City last November 2015.

I will never forget this place that gave me different kinds of experiences in a time where everything is new to me – I recently graduated from high school and entered college, first time to join an organization and socialize with people other than my community in school, and first time to be given a responsibility so big that it felt like it was now or never. 2015 was a big year for me; a combination of great and worst. And even though it’s gone, I can honestly say that I’m glad it’s over and although I miss it, I don’t want to bring it back.

Windy

Oh no. You see the great winds coming your way, will you face it or will you hide from it?

Troubling times, this is.
Confusing moments, unsure.
Uncertainties, revolving.
You don’t what everything means.

I’m eighteen,
in a faraway place,
without knowing,
where I’ll be going.

Right now, I just don’t know,
If this is the right thing I’m doing,
I just keep on going, hoping
I’ll find myself in the process of finding.

Leaving

And this is where you’ll see me leaving.

Throwback to these pictures, it was taken in Australia last summer 2015.

I don’t know why people hate goodbyes. Maybe because they are attached to certain things they can’t let go. People are adaptable beings and when they get used to the same routine happening everyday, they find it difficult to adjust to new things.

I’m a different person. I like the idea of leaving. It gives me the notion of getting to the better part. I consider myself sentimental who values memories and yet I can let easily let go. What I do with loneliness is that I replace it doing the things I like. I immerse myself with workload so that I don’t get to think so much.

Right now, I am adjusting, later on I will be adjusted and sooner, I will leave again.

In this life, I know I’ll be leaving again and again and I hope you get the courage to let go of things and I hope you also let go of your personal attachments. So that when it’s time, you know you’re ready to go.

Why am I doing this anyway?

How did I end up making a blog and started writing? Is it to chase my dreams and follow the footsteps of my idols? Partly, yes. As I’ve said in my previous post, I’ve always wanted to try this and one of my impossible-to-reach dreams is to be a famous blogger which I have done nothing in the past week to achieve and hooray for today because I have progress or because at least I am trying.

When you introduce yourself to someone new, you always say the basic information like your name, age, school, hobbies, etc. So yeah, I’ve already told you I am currently studying BS Development Communication in the University of the Philippines Los Baños. To graduate to this premier university, one must complete the units and required courses to take and one of my required classes is CMSC 2 or “The Introduction to the Internet.” I didn’t really get the subject at first but I needed it so my last resort was to “prerog.” I am a Freshman so I am not familiar with these things and I was really nervous on the way to the ICS building where I plan to prerog. I stopped when I saw the people that I know waiting outside the lab and went out of the building to go back to my dorm but I encountered my friend who was passing the same way as I did and encouraged me to prerog! She said I should at least try and so I did.

I didn’t know what to do of course, so I planned to wait outside for my prof and to ask immediately to prerog to avoid embarrassment in front of the class. It turns out, my prof was already inside the room, I didn’t noticed him at first. He called me in and there were some complications and I ended up singing in front of the class. It was my first experience to prerog and I was “baptized” (nabinyagan) to the prerog world of showcasing talents. That is why I won’t forget my professor, Sir Kevin Vega. When I asked others of their first prerog experience, they’d say they got accepted with no hassle. So I guess my first experience was memorable.

Anyway, CMSC 2 class requires us to make a blog. I guess it’s a good thing for me as a Development Communication student to practice my writing skills and also, to see if I have fashion sense by uploading pictures of what I wear. We are free to choose what kind of blog we’d like and these days, many netizens like fashion blogs so I think it will be interesting to have that kind of blog for it would be unique from the classic boring all-text blog. So here I am starting my path, making my first step to my destination thanks to this class.

The Usual First Post

Hello to you all! My name is Bianca Baldoza, I’m 18 years old and I live in Quezon City, Philippines. I’m currently studying BS Development Communication in the University of the Philippines Los Baños.

I’ve always wanted to create my own public blog. I have a private and secret blog that I’ve been writing on since forever but I find myself wondering what it’s like to have others read and see what’s in my thoughts.

Here in my blog, you’ll see what I’ll be wearing, what will be happening that day and my reflections on those happenings. This page is like an alternate outlet of my feelings. I may also post different kinds of articles that may have randomly passed on my mind so you may never know what I will post here. I can say it’s like a mixture of a fashion blog, a sharing of thoughts blog or whatsoever.

It may be of little interest to you but it would mean a lot to me if you can message me and give me comments on the posts I will do whether there will be mistakes; I’m open for corrections or if I have inspired or offended you, feel free to tell me for I am just an amateur blogger, opened to criticisms.

This will also serve as a track of the present conscious self I am today so let us see if I will have a transformation or if I will improve as days progress.